Little Posin' Madi

She loves the camera....both sides of it. She takes pictures of me all of the time. Most of the time she gets her finger in front of the flash or misses me altogether.

Cute Conversations

Me to Madi: You're the prettiest girl in our family.
Brant to Porter: No! Porter's the prettiest girl in our family.
Porter: No I'm not Dad!
Brant: Yes you are.
Porter: Dad! Look at my face and look at Madi's. She has the prettiest face.

Me: Do you want a grilled cheese sandwich Porter?
Porter: No, I want a boy cheese sandwich.
(He thought I said a girl-cheese.)

Me to Madi at church: Do you want to talk in church like that little boy at the pulpit?
Madi: I am talking in church right now.

I'm not the prettiest girl at work anymore

So maybe it’s conceit; maybe it’s realizing my youthful beauty has finally reached the top of the hill and it truly is “all downhill from here.” I’ll admit to some vanity over the past couple of decades. Vicki and I used to try to find girls in church who were cuter than us. I know, crazy. It was when we were in college. We would look around and try to find girls we thought were prettier. There wasn’t always a lot. If we thought someone was prettier, the other would argue that they weren’t . I’m not saying we were right, or that it was true; we were just really good for each other’s egos.

I came to this realization that I didn’t want to ask the magic mirror who was the fairest of them all sometime last week. I’ve been working at Paul Mitchell the School for two weeks now. It was a sad death of sorts. I totally understand Snow White’s wicked stepmother. But at work, I’m way out numbered by cute girls. I mean, there are lots of reasons that are out of my control. For one, the girls are half my age. When did I get old enough to work with people half my age? I AM going to be 39 this month. I have been out of circulation and admittedly grew quite frumpy while being a stay-at-home Mom for the past three years. The added weight gain, naturally takes off points. But, even if I were skinny, it’s still a tough competition.

Last night, while trying to go to sleep, my husband, Brant randomly said, “You know I still think you’re beautiful, don’t you?” I didn’t realize I didn’t think that anymore until he asked me that question. I haven’t felt beautiful for a long time. Not that my well-fed ego was lamenting over it. My ego always makes excuses for any deficiencies. You know, for example my ego will say, “You might not be the prettiest, but you’re the best looking 38 year old there. You look good for your age.” I like my ego.

I replied to Brant, “You do?” I wondered if he had been having secret talks with my ego. Or, maybe he was becoming my ego.

He said, “Oh, course. Why do you think I call you ‘Sexy’ all of the time.”

Begging for more, I said, “Really? You mean that?”

“You’ll always be the most beautiful woman in my eyes,” he continued. He leaned over and kissed me and then said what he says every night, “Good night, Sexy.”

He made me smile, and tear up a little. Maybe I’m not the prettiest at work anymore, but I’ll always be the most beautiful to him. I guess you can’t ask for more than that. Even if--as Ron always says, “The old gray mare ain’t what she used to be.”

Not enough time...

CAN YOU TELL who the leader of this group is? She's the boss, and they're her boys.

I have so much stuff I would like to write, but am limiting myself. Tonight is my last night before I leave for St. George in the morning so I am trying to spend as much time with the kids as possible. It's hard, but we have a goal and timeline in mind, so the sacrifice is worth it.

Here's my Madisonisms to record:

ME: You're a Smarty Pants.
MADI: Yes I am. I know everything.

MADI: (after I picked her up at Nursery) My teacher is so good. She took good care of me. She fixed my bow, tied my ribbon, and put on my shoes. She takes good care of me. She's so good.

ME: Did you have a good week?
MADI: I don’t know! What is a week?

MADI: (I just told her tonight was my last night before I have to go to work.) You want me to call you on the phone so you don’t miss me so much? (You can see she doesn't have as much of a problem as I do.)

MADI: Ughh!!! (Frustrated with Lane) We really need to teach him to talk.

Now, it's not that I am ignoring Porter. He just doesn't say much. I mean, he does, he just doesn't have these smart, funny, little quips that Madison does. He is very creative and is making up fantastic stories about dinosaurs, dogs, and super heroes. He is always fighting or saving the world.

Busy, busy

I started my new job last week in St. George. It's with Paul Mitchell-The School. I really enjoy it. Of course, I am so busy I haven't been blogging or taking pictures much. I hate being away from the kids, but it's this or live with other people for the rest of our lives! The choices we have to make.

Why do they look so sweet when they're sleeping?

My little boys love to sleep together. Last night Porter told me he was sleeping with Lane because he loves his brother.

Saturday is a special day...

...especially when your husband tells you to go back to bed--he'll take care of the kids. Wow! I loved it. After two extra hours of sleep I couldn't sleep any longer. I decided to get up and found him getting all three kids ready to go the park. I was kid-free until noon today. What a break. And, he's watching the kids tonight while Rhonda and I go to the Relief Society Broadcast. I am so lucky.

More About Ari

Written by Elizabeth (Lane) Hibbard

I woke up this morning and checked my email as I always do. Travis sent me a touching email he shared with four of his closest childhood friends. The tears flowed as I read his words. It is truly impossible to understand what a parent who is fighting for the life of their child must be going through. I will post parts of that email as I get time throughout the day to edit it. It's beautiful.
Check http://www.prayforari.blogspot.com/ for updates.
I am going to start working in St. George again next week and will be away from my children for four nights each week. My heart was aching as I thought of having to leave them. But, knowing it will only be temporary and will get our family to a better place, we have chosen to make the sacrifice now.
I still remember the quote that President Jones had on the wall of the seminary for all of the four years I attended. It read, "Sacrifice is trading what we want most for the moment, for what we want most in the end." That may not be exact, but that is the closest I remember it.
After Travis' email, I not only felt a sliver of his pain, I felt that I should be grateful that my situation is not the same as his. It's funny how we keep hearing that. Travis and Haley were glad they weren't in Vicki's shoes; and Vicki was glad she wasn't in their's. My friend, Lisa (Hamilton) West, always made the comment clear back in high school that if we all threw our trials into a pile and could go and pick out the ones we wanted, we would still probably take ours over someone else's.
I know people who have lived through some of life's hardest trials, and they always say, "I wouldn't trade this experience for anything." I think that is because through our greatest trials we also receive our greatest blessings. I know that Travis and Haley testify daily of the blessings they have received from this trial. Certainly, they would not have chosen it, but they have such a positive outlook they not only are leaving a legacy for their children, but for those who watch their example.
I don't think anyone who knows of their situation has not taken time to reflect on their own lives. Perhaps even hear their own murmurs and complaints. Hopefully, you have also felt gratitude as you thank the Lord for all of the blessings in your own life. This experience has touched me and I am thankful to Travis and Haley for sharing it with so many people. They are angels whose lights are shining bright, not only for their daughter, Ari, but for everyone else as well.

It's library day

Teaching the days of the week has been alot of work. We actually have to do an activity every day to help them think about what day it is. We christened Tuesday library day as that is a good day for the Toddler story time. I usually put Lane down for a nap and leave him with grandma. (She is so awesome.) Then, it's me and the twins. They really love the singing and dancing and story reading. We stayed a little longer today. I let them play with puzzles and read books. I decided to re-organize their puzzles. They were a mess. I know they'll be messed up again next week, but I thought maybe I could help.

Yesterday, Madison threw a fit. She is so good when she's good, and so bad when she is bad. It's strange. Porter justs stays in the gray area. Not too helpful, but not too bad. (Okay, sometimes he crosses over to the bad side.) Madison started throwing a tantrum. I have been giving her a warning when she does this and then I send her to her room to calm down. I was sitting by her yesterday and she started jumping up and down. She was throwing a tantrum. I said, "Madison, calm down or you will go to your room."

"No!!!!" She wailed and then jumped right into my lip. It split right open. And, instantly started swelling like a balloon. Not one for pain, I mean I purposely skipped all of the labor pains, I was dying. I wished I still had some percocet pills left. I iced it, put anbesol on it, and took ibuprofen. Then, took pictures and text them to people I thought I could get sympathy from. Okay, I sent one to Brant (bad idea) and one to Vicki. Vicki was sympathetic. Brant sent a big "LOL" back to me. He thought it was hilarious. I had to lie down for awhile. While I was moaning in pain, Madison came into my room and said very sweetly, "Mom, I really didn't mean to do that to your lip. I'm sorry."

Today she told me, "Mom, I just wanted you to hug me yesterday." I told her I would make a note of that in the future. My lip is still fat. If it was even, it wouldn't be so bad. But, I have an "A" cup on the left side of my lip and a "DD" on the right. It is even bruised on the front of my skin below the lip. Really, she got me good.

The twins in nursery

I took the camera to church on Sunday because Rhonda was taking pictures of the young women. When I was in the nursery, I took a picture of the kids.

The Circus is In Town!

I guess in Vegas the Circus is always in town. Brant took the twins and left Lane home with me. Lane and I walked to the library, while they were gone. They had so much fun. Porter has been talking about the man who flew out of the cannon for days. Brant snuck the kids into the V.I.P. seating area. He said it was no small task to outsmart the Shriners that were ushering the event. Actually, he said there was no one sitting in the V.I.P. section, so he thought he'd upgrade himself and the kids.

Baby Isabella

Isabella is my niece. Her mom, Heather, is Brant's youngest half-sister. We get to have her around alot because Heather is trying to finish High School and also has a full-time job.

She is only 5 months younger than Lane, so sometimes I feel like I have two sets of twins.

She is a sweetheart. She fits right in with all of the kids and loves to be around everyone. We've "picniced" dinner in the back yard the last two days because it has been so cool outside. (76 degrees) Bella joined us and helped clean the plates.

Grandma Smith Squared

Grandma Vivian Smith with some of her grandchildren. (l to r) Lane, Madison, Isabella Rosales, and Porter.

The twins and Lane love this Grandma Rhonda Smith. She does so much with them. They think they have the coolest grandma in the world. She let's them jump on her bed.

The kids are lucky to have so many grandparents. They are very loved! Madison knows how to kiss up.

Madi, Madi

What a little bundle of intelligence. This girl can not get enough of learning. She wants to read so bad. I have her practicing her alphabet now. She has almost gotten all of it down as far as being able to recognize each letter.

She's a smart little manipulator too. She wanted to go back to the library one day and we had already gone the day before. To try and convince me to take her back, she said, "Mom, we didn't thank our teacher yesterday. We need to go back and tell her thank you."

She is an extremely good Little Mama. She takes care of everyone. She loves to feed Isabella and take care of Lane. She just bosses Porter around. She is also my "Sergeant of Arms" reminding everyone of what the family rules are. No yelling, no hitting, and Mom is in charge. She often points her finger at her little brothers and says, "You listen to your Mudder! She is in charge." She looks at me for approval.

I forgot to mention this earlier, but about a month ago she informed me that she wasn't going to wear diapers to bed anymore. I was a little nervous, but she insisted that she didn't need them. Because we have mattress protectors, I told her we would try it and see how it goes. It's been about a month now and she has had four accidents. She is very upset when she does this. Last night, she was so excited because her "body woke her up to go to the bathroom." And, Porter, he'll probably be wearing a diaper to bed for a long time. He thinks being able to pee in bed is great.

She definitely has a stubborn streak and is very headstrong. It's be a challenge to work with her on some things

My Little Lane

He is such a character. I can't quite figure him out yet. He has this silent, but deadly personality. He will wander around the house very quietly, then you find out what he's been getting into. He dotes on his cousin Isabella, who is 5 months younger than him. He loves to follow the twins around and thinks he is as big as they are.

He's still only got his front 8 teeth. However, his teeth are starting to come in in the back. Bumps on the bottom, and teeth actually coming through on the top. He has been slow to get all of this teeth. He is very much a jokester and loves to play jokes on people. He's not as funny as he thinks he is. He's actually funny because he's trying to be funny. He thinks he can scare people. He let's out this little, "Baa!!" I think he is trying to say, "Boo!" If you're not paying attention you hardly notice his little roar. But if you pretend he scared the dickens out of you when he does it, he thinks it's hilarious.

He is alot like Brant. A total daredevil and thrill seeker. He is also quietly mischievous. But, he's also very sensitive and loves to give everyone kisses. He has a problem hitting you in the face when he wants to tell you that he loves you. Usually, he kisses you then hits you. Brant said he understands him completely. Wow! Okay, therapy already.

I am excited that he will be old enough to go into nursery soon. His first day is November 22nd--Brian's birthday. Can't wait. It will be strange that I will have three little ones in nursery at the same time. They're all movin' on up!

We took him out of his crib this past week. It was rough at first, but he seems to be getting the hang of it now. He sleeps in bed with Porter. Porter was much happier about it than he was. Porter likes to try to climb inside of people, he loves them so much. Lane, on the other hand doesn't like his feet covered or anyone to be touching him. (Not even me.) He's a very rude bed buddy. He has "allowed" Porter to sleep next to him. Porter tries so hard to get as close as he can, but Lane puts the kabosh on too much closeness. He probably thinks it's gay to sleep that close to his brother. That's what Brant would think.

He wants to go "bye-bye" with whomever is leaving out the door. On the rare occasion he does get to go, he is tickled pink. He has learned to open the front door, so we have to be very careful and lock it. The other day I heard the front door shut and when I went to check it, he had let himself back IN! He was covered in mud and had been playing in the flower bed. I am just glad he didn't wander down the street.

He doesn't have any attachments to blankies or binkies like Madison and Porter did. He's just his own little mold. He is a great little baby of the family.