I usually try to be so optimistic about life. While going to marriage counseling a year ago, we had to fill out a form each time we before we went into to talk to our counselor. One day, she told me, "Liz, you can not have this high of a score. No one is this happy. Not even me. I think you are overly optimistic." I remember getting in trouble for leaving the keys in the pizza parlor door overnight. Of course someone stole them. My Dad was so upset with me. It was his entire master set of keys. I don't blame him. I went in that morning and tried to clean the store and do the best I could to try to make up for it. I know he was really upset about it. He said to me, "You are just like a river. When something gets in your way, you just go around."
I do try to look at the bright side of life. But sometimes, it seems like I just can't carry all of the optimism anymore and it's too hard. Sometimes I feel so tired, so frustrated, I just don't have any more to give. I think, "I am terrible at being a mother or I am not a good enough wife. Why did I sign up for all of this?" I hate feeling this way. It will probably pass in a couple of days, but in the meantime, it's so overwhelming.
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Been there so many times - I think when we are doing anything important in life, we naturally go through fantastic highs and vistas along with lows and valleys. I try to remember it is part of the journey. When I get really discouraged I try to find inspiration to figure out WHY I am there. You might like this - http://blip.tv/file/656237/
Kayla that was so good. Thank you so much for sharing it and putting it together. It made me feel a lot lighter.
Keep your chin up Liz. It happens to us all, but I know that it does pass. For me those feelings come and go constantly.
I saw a sign in someone's kitchen once that said, "Motherhood is like being pecked to death by a chicken." Some days my husband is one of the chickens; somedays I want to change my name and not tell anyone the new one; and some days I forget why I'm doing it, too. I hear ya sister. "Can I get a wha, wha?" I have no wise words of advice, just sympathy. My dad always says, "Smile - things could be worse. Sure enough, you smiled and they got worse." If nothing else, I hope you laugh. Love ya.
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